Tragedy and pain is an unfortunate part of life. My family, as I'm sure many other families, has been affected by quite a bit this year. We search for comfort, answers, for purpose and most importantly the ability to push forward. There have been days when I thought........ this is my limit, this is all I can handle. That's a true statement, "This is all (I) can handle" I have very limited ability on my own to handle or overcome much of anything.
When my mother died 3 days before Christmas, when my aunt died less than a month later, today when my phone rang and my husband told me our 3 year old son will need a biopsy and we are being referred to a specialist, I realize over and over again I would never make it through this alone. Where is the light in the midst of this? Why is there joy in my heart and a sense of well-being, protection and strength? I have an Amazing God!
Yes, even though its easy to look at the statement above and see the fear and pain, do you know what I've also seen? God mended my mother and I's broken relationship, he brought total forgiveness into our hearts as He forgave us. He gave me the incredible privilege of being with my mother when she was saved and baptized 3 months before her death. The night before she died, I seen her in my dreams........ smiling, happy, and beautiful... and one day I will be with her in heaven! Tonight when I called my mother-in-law to let her know our son will be needing a biopsy... again God brought an opportunity for healing. He healed our hearts, our once tense relationship was made new and He gave me the opportunity to minister to her.
Throughout my life I felt as though I couldn't possibly be used to help someone...... I'm a mess! My life is less than perfect, I'm not wealthy, in fact I'm just a housewife. This is not how God see's me at all! I am a child of the King! An empowered woman of God serving a divine purpose everyday! His strength is made perfect in my weakness, made perfect! I know that my God Jesus Christ is in the healing business! Praise God! I know when I ask, I receive and when I pray He listens and answers. I can choose to have a heart filled with fear which activates the enemy or a a heart filled with faith which activates God!!! I choose God! I choose life everlasting, a hope that never ends.
When my mother died 3 days before Christmas, when my aunt died less than a month later, today when my phone rang and my husband told me our 3 year old son will need a biopsy and we are being referred to a specialist, I realize over and over again I would never make it through this alone. Where is the light in the midst of this? Why is there joy in my heart and a sense of well-being, protection and strength? I have an Amazing God!
Yes, even though its easy to look at the statement above and see the fear and pain, do you know what I've also seen? God mended my mother and I's broken relationship, he brought total forgiveness into our hearts as He forgave us. He gave me the incredible privilege of being with my mother when she was saved and baptized 3 months before her death. The night before she died, I seen her in my dreams........ smiling, happy, and beautiful... and one day I will be with her in heaven! Tonight when I called my mother-in-law to let her know our son will be needing a biopsy... again God brought an opportunity for healing. He healed our hearts, our once tense relationship was made new and He gave me the opportunity to minister to her.
Throughout my life I felt as though I couldn't possibly be used to help someone...... I'm a mess! My life is less than perfect, I'm not wealthy, in fact I'm just a housewife. This is not how God see's me at all! I am a child of the King! An empowered woman of God serving a divine purpose everyday! His strength is made perfect in my weakness, made perfect! I know that my God Jesus Christ is in the healing business! Praise God! I know when I ask, I receive and when I pray He listens and answers. I can choose to have a heart filled with fear which activates the enemy or a a heart filled with faith which activates God!!! I choose God! I choose life everlasting, a hope that never ends.
Love your posts honey keep it up.
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